{{post iii}}

[shieldofrohan]

Two seasons have turned since I found myself here - half a year gone by, by my count. That frightens me. Even if the Mistress spoke truly when she said our own worlds stand still, yet this one does not. We grow, we age, we draw further away from home. And to what purpose?

If I speak truly, from the heart, I do not hate this land. It is strange, and vulgar, yet there is a curious peace here, a freedom to speak and to act as one might not in a more mannered land. I think that if I were returned, I should miss it.

But my people await. My King yet ails, my country yet faces the Shadow, the darkness yet lingers. It is wrong, I think, that I should be here and not there. I have no purpose here, no duty worthy of the name. Sooner would I face war and misery than to live and die without need, without honour. I fear to abandon my duties. I fear that part of me wishes it. I fear I could not return at all, changed as I am. Shamed as I am.

Would you return home? If you were offered such a chance, would you take it? Would you even question it?

Comments

[khuy]

I think it depends on what your definition of home is. Are you going home-home? Or right back to where you fucking left off? Y'know what I'm sayin?

[shieldofrohan]

I do.

Have you been long away from home, in whatever bitter place you found yourself?

[khuy]

You don't need the details. As long as I'm going home-home, I'd jump any opportunity.

[shieldofrohan]

And if you were not, would you then stay?

[khuy]

Hard to say. I think I'd fucking stay cause it's more exciting then my current situation. Well. Actually that's not quite fucking fair to say but the circumstances seem better.

[shieldofrohan]

There are some excitements better than others, is that what you mean?

[khuy]

absolutely! you fucking nailed it!

[shieldofrohan]

I did what?

[khuy]

you nailed it? it means you got it right if that's what you're asking.

[shieldofrohan]

Oh.

Forgive my ignorance. That is not how others here have used that word, and I did not suppose you could mean it literally.

[khuy]

well getting nailed has a different meaning, yes
but i said you fucking nailed it not i'm gonna fuckin nail you.
unless you want that? then shit man i don't know if i've ever met someone as bold as me

[shieldofrohan]

You have a strange idea of boldness.

[khuy]

not many people like bein bold and brave about sex but... i guess things are different here.

[shieldofrohan]

Such is not the courage I would value, 'tis true, nor first think of when speaking of "bold". Yet I suppose you are not wrong. There is space for boldness in such things, too.

And things certainly are different here.